january was a jerk. i wasn’t too fond of the beginning of 2010.
february has been a freakin’ fabulous change of pace. not a lot has changed other than my perspective. i have stopped fighting God about imminent changes and allowed my focus to shift from the frustrations to the blessings.
even through the process of being frustrated with my finances i knew that God had ALWAYS provided. it amazes me how ridiculously worrisome i can be even with that knowledge. this time is no exception, but there is always an element of surprise or change with the provision.
i will be moving at the end of this month. it will be heart-wrenching to leave my home and the people who have become family to me. thankfully they will only be fifteen minutes away. i have been blessed to have a brother, sister-in-law, two nephews and a neice who are willing (and excited) to offer me a room. the move will be bittersweet as i’m grieving and celebrating the change simultaneously.
i have not given God very much credit for this blessing. when things tend to fall into place and peace comes, i often attribute it to things like coincidences and people’s efforts. this was brought to my attention tonight gently by another blessing.
tears immediately filled my eyes as cash fell out of an unexpected card filled with beautiful words. not given out of abundance or obligation, the value sky-rocketed over the actual monetary amount. reaching the depths of my heart, jeremiah 29:11 resonated loudly as i sat in awe.