well hello there…it has been awhile. so much is changing and i have been overwhelmed with the monstrosity that is my life. i’ve come to realize that i don’t want to write light, fluffy stuff if that is not how the days are going. i am spending most of my time filling my every moment with things to do or checking out for a few hours by doing senseless stuff like tv and reading. i don’t feel strong enough to face things so i have resisted blogging about them as well. once you put your thoughts into words it makes them seem a little bit more real and that scares me.
a miracle would be really nice right about now.