yesterday i ventured beyond my typical church family and visited a different church. a creature of habit and comfort, even this little change in scenery caused some insecurities to creep in. though i long for new adventures, i tend to shrink back into myself until i have observed for a while and get my bearings. not always a bad thing, i also can miss out on some pretty sweet stuff.
a few minutes after sitting down i notice a couple people come in that i recognize. i had gone to school with their older brother since kindergarten and we had grown up within a block from each other. not sure if they would remember me, i basically ignored them.
songs began and God began working on my heart. in the past, some have mentioned my quietness coming across as snobbish and i was devastated that my actions were perceived that way. a boldness came over me and it saddened me that even within the church walls i would be so afraid of a possible slightly awkward conversation.
after church i seized the opportunity to talk to them. not only did they remember me but thanked me for coming over and talking to them. i felt like my heart was smiling.
connections. fellowship. love. isn’t that what life is about?
next time don’t hesitate. you may not know what your silence may be saying.